only take one pic to destroy all

i wasn't supposed to take a glance at you

a merely chance that i finally have cured all this sickness

was brutally hit me hard

that i might never be healed, ever again

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days ago i have dreamt of you several times

you approached me first and called me

you seem like you need to tell me something, i could feel the urgency

i know, i know i mustn't think of that possibility

but why the dream was always stopped a second after you are about to start the story?

what had happened?

again, i know i'm not a holy prophet who have a meaningful dream

but why does it occurred most of times now?

it only leads me nowhere

no matter how busy work is

or i simply enjoying this life

i still have this longing since a long time ago

i hated myself for this

i tried everything

but it seems like it's not the best time yet

help me get through this

by fully erasing a glimpse of you in me

or send me someone to cheer me up

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yes, i'm that desperate.